Friday, July 24, 2015

ABC Wednesday - B

Blah.  Blech.  Blargh.  Boo hoo.  Bollocks.  Bronx cheer.  Bad day.  Wish I could find some Balance, Because Bad is in my Blood.  Gonna end up another Burned-out old Bum, Begging for Bread Behind the Bar.  But let's talk about Books instead of the Bottomless Bugaboo of Bigotry, Because Books are a Beautiful, Bountiful, Blessing...

On  my shelf, one would find:

The Business of Fancydancing

by Pamela S. Booker

by Marion Zimmer  Bradley

Bury Me Standing

Before Night Falls

The Bull of Minos

by Janet Bord

by Barbara Kingsolver (also Animal Dreams)

and my good, old, Old Mr. Boston's Bartending Guide

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Tuesday, July 21, 2015


     Heinrik lay on his bunk, staring at the ceiling.  He wished she hadn't written to him.  He'd written to her, though, about two weeks after they processed him, but four weeks later, his letter was returned to sender, address unknown.  After five months of nothing, he reconciled himself to just doing his time alone, contemplating what it meant to be in jail over 40, with no one on the outside missing you at all.  Life just went on, man...sure, there were people who would be happy to see him when he got out, but it didn't really matter to anyone that he was gone.  That kind of thinking got him down.  But here was a letter - all full of words the same way Blanche was, tumbling out of her onto the page in a rush, branching off into other stories that went on for pages.  Like he was right there in the room with her, and they were having a conversation.  It made him smile, but in here, a letter from her was as unwelcome as a fresh breeze, because once it blows through, it leaves the air behind it even more rank and foul than it was before. God, he actually missed her.
     Rolling over on his stomach, he shuffled the pages back into order and started over from the beginning - 'Blessed Beltane, Brother!'  God, he didn't even know what time of year it was, past Hot.  That meant summer, right?  And if the Solstice was on...June 21, then it was coming right up.  He wondered what phase the moon was in, and made a mental note to try and see it out the window at some point, soon.  Heinrik sat up on, then jumped down from, the bed, and got a piece of paper and a pen from his locker.  Sitting down at the table with Blanche's letter, he began, "Hey Blanche, so good to hear from you!"  He filled the front of the page with his standard response - a quick run-down of the place he was in, how much he hated it, a countdown to when he'd be out, and a request for more letters.  Heinrik looked up at the sound of Andrew pulling out a chair to sit down across from him while asking, "Whatcha doin'?  Writin' a letter?"
     "Yeah."  was all Heinrik offered.  Andrew wasn't a bad sort, just not the sort he liked to call his friend.  He laughed his strange laugh; halting, like he was testing the sound of it, unsure.  "Ha ha, who would right you a letter in here?  Nobody likes you, man - ha ha!"  Heinrik felt his chest fill with air, but blew it out slowly through his nose while creeping a sly half-smile across his lips.  "It's from a girl, Andrew...a woman.  A woman who may be my best friend in the world, Andrew."  He leaned back in his seat, and let his eyes drift skyward, spreading the grin out as he affected the appearance of remembering fond days gone by.  Andrew's uncertainty increased, and a frown briefly ticked across his generally open face as he assimilated the new information, and worked out what to say next to keep Heinrik engaged in this rare display of camaraderie and inclusion.  "No...," Andrew lowed, "couldn't be...there's no women that would have anything to do with a low-down loser like yourself."
     Heinrik fully grinned as he swung forward on the weight of the information he was about to impart, hooking Andrew into his story, and enjoying the tiny bit of gossip this crumb of humanity would bring him in the next week, in advance.  "Yes, Andrew, my friend Blanche would - when she used to write me during that stretch I did in Stockton, we weren't allowed to have any magazines or anything, so she would write these pornographic letters for everyone to read.  We'd pass them around.  She had a bunch of fans by the time I got out."  That thought actually did make him a bit nostalgic, but he shook it off just as quickly as it came on, and sat back in his chair again, finished conspiring with Andrew, who was rapt with attention.  Letting Heinrik's words settle into his understanding a bit, Andrew smiled slowly and shook his head as if he thought the possibility highly unlikely, stating, "No, ha ha ha!  No..."
     "Yes, Andrew, it's true!  I really do have a good friend who writes to me, and I've just finished writing her back," Heinrik assured him, as he stood up, stretched just enough to make his point, and sauntered away from the table to find an envelope and a stamp so he could send out his response as soon as possible.  "There's no woman writes you nothin' from nowhere, ha ha," shouted Andrew, in his simple, halting way, "probably your gay-ass boyfriend from wherever you hippy fuckers live, ha ha...yeah, hippy fuckers, ha ha!"  Andrew nodded and fidgeted to himself for another minute or so, then abruptly got up from the table, and made a few swift, tight, circles around the outer edge of the room, every now and then muttering "pornography...woman...outside...".

Totally not Sunday, but still Whirling.


breeze angle tilt staggered awake astray spirit cracks bruising instinct hamper smiled

     His instinct must have been what woke him from his deep slumber.  After the ritual the other night, he and Garibaldi had sat together at the massive table that had been brought out to the meadow for the event, and stuffed themselves full with tender and delicious victuals until they leaned back in their chairs, half-asleep with satisfaction.  They groaned and rubbed their bellies, when Daddy-O suddenly realized he hadn't noticed Noel around since before the ritual, when he'd told him to go away in no uncertain terms.  With a great yawn and a stretch, he changed the angle of his head just enough to sniff the aromas surrounding the table and the meadow without having to move his bloated body, and didn't sense Noel anywhere.  "Hey...hey seen Noel in a while?"
     "Hmm..?"  Garibaldi had barely responded, "Noel?  Not since I left you sitting on that stump before things began to pop off.  He's probably passed out in a bush somewhere, dreaming about 'getting some' from that nymph."  He chuckled to himself and smiled, "Idiot.  I hope she doesn't kill him...or maybe I hope she does.  At least that way I get my den back sooner than later.  Speaking of which, I'm about done in, you want to call it a night?  I'm happy to walk you back to your place."
     "Yeah?  That would be cool, thanks.  I'm falling asleep right here, and I wouldn't mind getting back home before I pass out completely."  While Daddy-O staggered to his feet, Garibaldi dozed off and fell out of his chair, which woke him instantly, and he sprang quickly to his feet, blinked his eyes, and turned in a circle to sniff at the breeze, discerning whether or not there was any threat in the air.  Daddy-O smiled and shook his head when he heard the soft thud of Garibaldi's body hitting the ground, and the subsequent rustling that accompanied his quick recovery and reconnaissance.  "You too, huh?  Well, let's blow this taco stand while we're still both somewhat awake, and able to make it back to my place without going too far astray."
     Shaking his head to clear it, Garibaldi yawned, "Aight, let's do it, my man."  Making their way out of the meadow, they shook hands/hooves/tentacles, gave and received hugs, and called out their thanks and good-byes to the many who still lay littered on the ground, on the table, and up in trees.  Garibaldi led his friend safely home, and sauntered off sleepily back to his own den, which was still several miles away.  Daddy-O had stumped over to his comfy loveseat, and gone face-down without even removing his tattered clothing, which had certainly seen better days - like yesterday, when he'd put them on before the whole Bacchanalian had yet to go down.  Sleep came instantly, and deeply.
     But now, there was something awry, and his senses alerted him to the danger through his slumber.  It felt like a pricking on his skin, and he knew better than to move, and let whatever may be intruding into his space know that he sensed its presence.  His heart thumping in his chest, he listened intently to the small cracks he was hearing, coming from somewhere over by the laundry hamper.  What could it be?  Sniffing the air slowly so his nostrils wouldn't flare noticeably (in case whatever-it-was was watching him for signs of wakefulness) he tried to make sense of what his adrenaline-flooded synapses were telling him.  That Noel was sitting on his floor, over by the crevice that served as his closet, cracking and eating walnuts.  What the hell..?  How should he address this trespass, and blatant disregard for his privacy?  He didn't much care for Noel, in general, but he could sympathize with his situation...somewhat.  This, though...this was beyond what he was willing to accept.
     Daddy-O decided to meet the challenge head-on.  "What the fuck are you doing in my den, Noel," he intoned gravely without moving; no hint of welcome in his voice, no sign of friendship.
     "You know I didn't like, mean anything by it, like, it's not breaking and entering or anything.  Just needed a place, have a little snack, that's all.  Yeah, just stopped in for like, a snack.  Want a walnut?  Just like, tilt your head back a bit, and I'll, like, toss one in your mouth."
     Sighing heavily, Daddy-O hauled himself upright and stretched sleepily.  Walnuts were a rare commodity in the forest, and as much as the thought of one set his mouth to watering, his desire for the dry, soft nut-meat was less than his desire for removing Noel from his presence as quickly as possible.  "You are cruising for a bruising, Noel...I swear I'm fixing to leap across this room, and tear you to pieces for my breakfast."
     "...Cruising for a bruising," Noel guffawed.  "That's so, like, 1950's of you, like, the spirit of the sock hop is alive and well, and, like, living in a cave in the forest!"  Laughing at his own joke, Noel stood up to stretch his legs.  As he shook them out, he continued, "Like, why do you even, like, dress like that?  And, like, talk like that?  And...and...hey, what are you doing?  Hey!  Ow!"  Daddy-O had raised himself up off the loveseat, rolled his shoulders and his neck, then sprang across the space between them, and pinned Noel to the wall of the cave, pressing hard on his windpipe with his forearm.
     "I thought I told you yesterday...leave me alone.  I don't like you, I don't want you in my den, we're not friends, and your presence is a nuisance to just about everyone I know.  So - if you get out of here the second I let you go, I promise I won't kill  Tomorrow?  Well...we'll just have to see about that, now, won't we?"  Noel was struggling and gurgling under the pressure of Daddy-O's muscular arm, his face turning colors the blind werewolf couldn't see.  Managing at last to croak out some form of positive affirmation, he ran for the entrance the moment Daddy-O chose to release him, coughing and choking as he stumbled out into the forest, snot running from his nose, tears streaming from his eyes, shit staining his pants.  Smiling to himself, Daddy-O picked up the remaining walnuts he could feel strewn about the floor, cracked one in his fist, and enjoyed the delightful treat that had made an unexpected appearance in his day.  
      "That settles that," he said with finality, as he made his way back to his beloved loveseat, grabbed the hand-knitted afghan slung across its back, and curled himself into a ball beneath its warmth to enjoy another few hours of blessed rest.

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Tuesday, July 14, 2015

ABC Wednesday

I popped into ABC Wednesday to see what was up over there, and it turns out, they're shutting down soon, so I'm glad I checked.  Right at the beginning of the alphabet, too.  So I'm gonna jump in this round, and think of something that begins with A...

A is for Alpha, agrimony, aluminum.  Arsenic, antimony, agriculture, aardvark.  A is for artist, art, and arterial...airplane, aeronaut, and ardor.  Alaska, Agartha, asparagus, Agrippa...Aesop, aged, apparent, aster.  A is for Aleph.  'A' my name is Annie...A is for Apple.  A is the beginning, the first point following the subject in an outline.  A is for Angel. A is amusing, aggravating, and apocalyptic. 

A is annoying.  It's not A's fault I've got nothing.  I even looked back through my blog to see what I did for A last time I played, and you know what?  I never did one!  I seem to have popped in at I and dropped out at W.  Weird.  So I'm not sure what to go for, here.  Roger did Alpha-Bits...should I write a poem?  Post a picture?  Define a word?  I was looking for something new to inspire me this morning, so maybe I'll google A and see what comes up...

The first thing to come up (after the ads) was the Wikipedia for the letter A.  Under images, a big black blocky A.  That's not inspirational.  I need more...a YouTube search (for A) brings up 'Spider bursts out of a banana', followed by an aluminum cast of a fire ant colony.  So random...where to, now?  Handmade books were on my mind this morning, and there's a fresh set of folios folded on the table right next to me, ready to be glued.  But 'books' would be there an A book?  A books...AbeBooks!  Look what a lovely welcome they had for me!

Who's Your Book Hero?

I discovered AbeBooks while I was working on my thesis, so let's call that no less than 5 years ago.  They had some rare selections at interesting price ranges, really nifty stuff.  Let's see if they have any of that now:  well, there's a 'weird book' room, which is sort of interesting, but not what I was going for...ah!  Found it!  Here there are books bound in cowhide, ivory and calfskin, silver/gilt/velvet/rubies, embroidered silk, inlaid wood, snakeskin, mulberry bark, and other mediums, some rather curious.  Which led my ramblings to another A, Anthropodermic bibliopegy.  Kind of gross, but go ahead and click the link if you don't mind gross things...I'll  leave it up to you, but it did make me shudder, even though I think it's kind of cool, and puts me in mind of The Pillow Book, though in a much less romantic way!

Hey - check out this little book that's another kind of A - adorable!  Well, that's all I've got.  I'll think of something better for B, or maybe I'll just do some more books, who knows. 

Sunday, July 12, 2015

Weekly Wordle - Witches, Werewolves, and...wha-at?


 witches ear dolls heartbreak branded scorpion spells
ball werewolf resurrection alone blind hunted

     At the Witches Ball, the blind Werewolf found himself standing alone.  He knew this would happen, but still, he had to shake off, brush himself down, and go out of his den to interact in social situations every now and again to keep himself sane, so here he was.  He could smell that there were a variety of creatures at this gathering, including at least one other Werewolf, which made him slightly less nervous, though he couldn't quite tell who it was...maybe Noel, or Garibaldi.  There were several humans, a few extra-terrestrials, brownies, sprites, nymphs, Greet, some satyrs and maybe a centaur (they could be hard to tell apart), and a couple of elves who were either married, or twins, he wasn't sure.  And there was this other...thing.  Or rather, it was more like a presence that didn't necessarily have an odor so much as something you noticed just after it passed by; a movement in space.
     His ear twitched toward a sound at the edge of the circle as he sensed two Werewolves approaching on his right.  He shifted his weight to the balls of his feet, and curled his shoulders slightly forward as he heard, "Hey ho, Daddy-O!" followed by the sweet aroma of fresh, raw, meat on Garibaldi's breath.  Puffing up his chest, he bobbed in the center of his acquaintance's circling, and nodded his head when he caught on that Noel was present as well.  "Hey guys, what's up?"
     "Just chekin' out some new spells, you know, new spells, because I need to like, get that nymph over there to like me so I can, you know, like, get some...or whatever."  Noel was so weird about females.
     "Dude, what?  What the hell are you talking about?  You're a Werewolf.  What the hell makes you think you could - 'a' do a spell, 'b' do one good enough to put over on a nymph, 'c' not get killed trying to do so by any number of female-respecting members of the forest community...and 'd' you're a moron!  Cheesus, what I have to put up with you new guys...hey, shut up until I tell you you can speak again, Noel."  Garibaldi shook his head, and put his arm carefully around his blind brother.  "Listen, Daddy-O, how you doing, ok?  You need anything out there in your den or anything?  How's the hunting going?"
     Nodding, he assured  Garibaldi that all was well, "oh, yeah, it's good, you know?  I've gotten much better with the traps, and I'm starting to spread out from my den a bit more, maybe a two and a half mile radius, now?  I get a bit lonely, but my den's good - I really dig that loveseat you brought me, it's really comfortable for me in both forms, thanks."
     "Hey, no problem!  I told you, I take care of my friends, Daddy-O, I take care of my friends.  You look good.  Any pain, still?  You need any more of that ointment from Jolene?  Hey, she's right over there - hey Jolene!  Come shout at my man, Daddy-O!"  Daddy-O felt the weight of Garibaldi's arm lift from his shoulders before enduring several 'brotherly' slaps as Jolene was welcomed into their chat.  "Jo-leeene, what's up, girl?  You're looking fine as always, when are you going to let me come swim in your river, huh?  How long we known each other, huh?"
     "Not long enough, Garibaldi.  And before you ask, if we know each other another hundred years, it still won't be!"  Her laugh smelled as sweet as her skin, and Daddy-O had to smile as he felt her light touch on his wrist.  "Hey, sweetie, how are you?  It's nice to see you out."  She leaned in and brushed his cheek with a kiss, and the scent of her made his mouth water.  "How are the eyes, any pain?  Do you need some more of my rush ointment?  Lucky I always have some handy," she said, as she fished in her bodice for a small shell filled with her magical heal-all.  "Hello, Noel, I didn't see you standing there.  How are you this evening?"
     "I'm not supposed to talk until Garibaldi says so, so...nothing."
     "Oh, Noel...whatever.  You don't have to do what he says, you know."
     "Yeah, actually, he does.  He's older than the Dad, over here, who as you know, just recently went blind, and still manages to take care of himself better than this one who hasn't moved out of my den, yet.  He's cramping my style, you know?  Cheesus, I need my life back, Jolene, what's a Werewolf to do without his privacy to brood in?  It exhausts me, mothering him; he's on a deadline, and he needs to get straight before he gets himself hunted.  You hear me, Noel?  You're gonna get yourself hunted, my man, so get it together!"
     "Oh, poo - you're too hard on him.  Be nice!  Listen, it looks like they're gonna start the circle, so I'll see you hairy bastards later.  Dad, honey, save me dance, ok?"
     "Oh, yeah, Jolene, no problem, thanks for the ointment," he called, as the intoxicating scent of her drifted across the meadow.  He felt weak in the knees suddenly, like it had taken all his strength to hold himself up while she was in front of him, but now that she was gone, he was spent by the effort.  "Hey, Garibaldi, can you find me a seat, I'm dizzy all of a sudden..."
     "Yeah, no problem..." Garibaldi sighed as he watched Jolene walk away, then sprang to Daddy-O's side and gently led him to a stump.  "That woman is a scorpion; she's got heartbreak written all over her."
     ", Garibaldi, she's not like that at all!"
     "Yeah, what do you know?  How long have you known her, 4 years?  5?"
     "Well, yeah..."
     "I've known her for that, plus a hundred, kid, ok?"
     "I know, but..."
     "Her kind play with men like they're dolls, Daddy-O.  Their souls get branded when they face the trial of the resurrection.  Ugly shit, I'm telling you.  I know I flirt with her and tease her, but don't ever underestimate the power Jolene has to flay you inside out.  You hear me, Noel?  Inside out!  It wouldn't surprise me at all if that ointment she gives you might not just restore your eyesight all together, my man, you know?  All right," Garibaldi said in conclusion, "you hang tight here, I'll come back around to you eventually.  After the ritual, we'll sit together, and I'll make you a plate!"  He slapped Daddy-O's back one more time as he made his way through the crowd to greet some Greet.
     "...but I'm not a man, am I?", he sighed to his acquaintance's non-presence.
     "Yeah...who here do you think would sell me some spells, 'cause I like, really need to get a few, for you know, things.  There's some things I'd like to do..."
     "Noel - seriously.  No one is going to give you a spell.  And if you don't leave me alone, I'm going straight for your neck when the moon rises.  Your blood would be a worthy enough sacrifice from me, so please don't put me in a position where I may be forced to kill you, ok?"  There was no response, but he could tell by the shifts in the air around him that he had made his point, and enjoyed the swirling mixture of scents that filled in the welcome absence.  Yes, this was going to be a good party; he was already glad he came.

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Monday, July 6, 2015

Sunday Whirl Monday


quilts grain heart crows escaping open collapse clay splintered crack crawled bones

open heart
        splintered heart
escaping into the open

cracked open
        splintered open
my heart crawls open

my heart collapses
        collapses open
cracked open and splintered like bones

my bones escaping
        escaping my heart
cracked open and splintered like grain

grain cracking crows
       splintered by crows
escaping through my open heart

the clay quilted
         across my heart
splintered by crows

the bones quilted
        crawling across my open heart
splintered like clay

escaping the quilts that collapse my bones
        in the splintered clay where
the crows crack grain

open like my heart
        collapsing open like my splintered heart
crawling across my bones

this one felt like a chant to me, with a rhythm of its own.  not sure if I caught it, but the repetition at least hints at the solemnity and power of the image these words laid out in my mind.  do join in the fun at:

Study Hall

     Blanche was drawing a complete and utter blank, in more ways than one.  Some of her writer acquaintances were getting together for a 'virtual study hall', and while she wanted to join them, she felt she had nothing to offer.  This ominous 'nothing to offer' was becoming an all too familiar theme in her advancing years - not that she was all that old - and as an idea, was one that could keep her laid flat out in bed for hours, staring at the ceiling, enumerating her shortcomings to herself.  Topping the list was the fact that she remained utterly and unhappily single, and saw no relief from her solitude anywhere even near the horizon, which led her spiraling through her harsh, personal, judgements conspiring to keep her prone on an otherwise beautiful day.  She decided to run through the litany out loud, in a pathetically whiny sing-song voice (there wasn't anyone to hear, anyway) to make it sound as awful as it felt to her.
     "I'm faaaaat," she whined.  "I'm uuuuuglyyyyyy, " she continued.  "I don't have any real friiieeeends," she moped.  "No one loooooves me, and I'm never going to have seeeeex again,"  she complained.  "I don't wriiiiiite, I don't draaaaaw, I don't creeeeaaaaate aaaanything anymooooore," she concluded.  Heaving the deep sigh such negativity elicits, Blanche rolled onto her side and looked at her computer across the room on her desk, which stared placidly back, waiting calmly for her to pull herself together.  "What are you looking at," she accused the machine's blank neutrality.  When it failed to respond, she let her arm fall to the side of the bed, feeling around on the floor, and came up with a slipper that she barely managed to toss in the direction of her desk, not even aiming at her perceived enemy.  Giving out another moan of self-loathing, she rolled onto the floor, then crawled over to her office chair, made a great show of hauling herself into the seat (there wasn't anyone to see, anyway), and huffed at the computer screen as it jumped awake to her touch on its keyboard.
     Checking her email, and finding one that needed responding to immediately, she began typing, and soon, another whine filled the empty space around her.  "I can't even tyyyyyype anymooooore!"  The tedium of having to backspace and correct misspelled words, or syntax errors, was enough to send her back to the bed like an over-tried five year old, but she merely shrank into her chair and rubbed her face while growling out her frustrations with sounds more animal in nature than most educated humans cared to produce.  She was a heathen.  A stark raving heathen so full of self-pity, she could barely stand her own company, and spent half her day trying to get away from herself, leaving her exhausted.  Managing to pound out the few lines required by way of reply, she sent the pixels off to do what they did in cyber-space, and resisted the urge to call that enough of an accomplishment to merit a long nap. 
     Blanche knew she had a long way to go to consider herself worthy of earning a lie-down, but she wasn't sure where to begin.  Checking and responding to email hardly counted, since she had used this activity to replace her morning yoga practice, more than a month ago.  She considered that, and stood up wearily, rolling the office chair aside to make enough room on the floor for her to perform a sun salutation.  Stretching her arms up to the sky, she then reached out as far as she could and bent forward, until her fingers brushed the tops of her toes.  She couldn't help but notice how tight the back of her legs felt, and noted how in the recent past, she could rest her palms flat on the floor with little effort.  Inhaling, she stretched her left leg out behind her, then exhaled as she reached her arms skyward again.  Another inhale as she set her hands on the ground, then an exhale as she moved her right leg back in line with her left, and pressed her hips upwards into 'downward dog'.  She took a moment to breathe in this position, savoring the sensation of feeling her back stretched flat, and noting the pull in the back of her stiff thigh and calf muscles.  Drawing a blank on the next move in the sequence, she crumpled to her knees and elbows, sighed another great sigh, and lay down.  "I quit," she mumbled into the carpet, which she couldn't help but notice needed a good shampooing.