for the last new moon of the astrological year a few days ago on the 18th, I did all the 'tying up of loose ends' as I could in terms of letting go of doubt, self-sabotage, and negative self-talk, and we'll just have to see how that plays out. the intuitive and emotional Pisces energy had me feeling creative, and though my sleep has been interrupted, still filled with vivid and imaginative dreams. in giving myself the space to listen, I've enjoyed honoring what my body needs which is A Lot of rest right now, and I'm grateful to have had the time to indulge myself as much as I have. the only thing that still feels unresolved - which is kind of big in itself - is my current lack of employment, because I know when that changes, my whole schedule will change with it. and that will work itself out the way it needs to, as well.
I've been running myself ragged for the past year with getting settled in a new country, learning the language, securing housing, looking for and working at several jobs in a row, dealing with all the bureaucracy, and finding help when I've needed it. not to mention 'war', with all the added fun of drone strikes, rocket and missile attacks, the aforementioned losing of sleep due to alerts and sirens, runs to the bomb shelter, supporting my mental/physical/emotional health through it all, and managing my concern for my family and friends both here in Israel, and back in the US. the patterns I see repeating are mostly the ones where I let myself get too stressed out about situations I have no control over (and my ongoing food issues), so I'm still doing what I can to remind myself that I have made it this far by continuing to get back up and try again. all I can do is rest, and try to breathe through it, because everything is fine in THIS moment, and it all works out in the end.
so...how do I want to FEEL my way into the next astrological cycle? I know I want to feel happy and grounded. also safe, secure, and supported. I'd like to feel myself becoming calmer and have the ability to act more rationally when faced with challenges (without eating everything in the refrigerator). I know I'd like to soothe myself by engaging with more creative habits - like actually sewing that dress instead of leaving it aside for weeks, and writing in the beautiful journal I took the time to make for myself rather than leave it on the shelf. and I want to go to the sea even though the beach is currently 'closed' due to the lack of bomb shelters nearby, but I wonder if I can't manage to find myself down there anyway. I want to feel like I'm succeeding in bringing my vision to light, and sharing it with the world, so that is the wish I am putting out into the Universe.
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we've moved into the sign of Aries, whose energy is FIRE. today is a day to soak in the heightened frequencies and balance we are enjoying due to the Equinox, and recognizing the clarity that Mercury going direct is bringing us. this is a time for passion and motivation - but too much of a good thing can cause burnout, so make sure to Look before leaping! this is not the time to 'jump and hope the net will appear' (my usual M.O.), it's a time to declutter and cleanse, and start a new healthy habit or two in pursuit of our goals. I find I've mostly been putting my energy towards finding a job - revamping my resume and Linkedin profile, working with a career coach and members of the employment support team at the aliyah agency that helped me get here, looking on the Israeli job boards, working on my networking skills...just really diving in to it, and it feels like the positive forward motion I've needed to turn my inspiration into action.
let's get to the cards. this week I'm using the Wild Unknown pocket tarot by Kim Krans:
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what is the current collective mood? three of wands ~
wands are the suit that represents fire! and threes represent synthesis. the introduction of a new idea. threes can hold, carry, and build. this is the formulation of a plan to move forward with confidence, and see our way through to our dreams. that sounds like a generally good mood to me, and reflects where I seem to be standing - are you feeling this? let me know in the comments!
where will we find the support we need with chasing our dreams? nine of wands ~
more wands, I love that FIRE, lol! coming to the end of the suit this time, having nearly completed our journey through...the 'final step' before we complete the cycle, which can often be challenging. it usually indicates working alone, which is a pretty clear sign that we've gotten all the help we're going to get, and need to take this last step on our own. it will take persistence, resilience, and the ability to defend ourselves even through our own exhaustion. doubt and fear may have us feeling like we're running out of energy to climb this ladder, but take a look back at how far we've come and find the strength to get to the point that is in reach, where all our hard work will pay off.
how can we best focus this Equinox energy to achieve maximum balance in our lives? four of cups ~
fours are that platform we
build to prop up the synthesis from the threes - a foundation, and a
place to work from. we can take a bit of a rest here
and celebrate our wins for a minute...but in this case,
we're not very happy with the three cups we already have while
turning away from a fourth being offered. do we not see it?
are we rejecting it? this card is telling us that from
the outside, what we have looks pretty spectacular, so why the
apathy? spending too much time thinking about moving away
from everything we've built doesn't help us climb that ladder to
success - the balanced energy we're currently in tune with is giving
us every opportunity to name what it is we really want, and go after
it!
remember that we've integrated our older ideas with
our newer ideas to come up with even better ideas, and we've done it
together. so now we each need to take that inspiration to heart
and finish our own part of the work without our support systems, even
though we may have moments of doubt. what would it look like
for us to find a way for our internal work to elevate our collective
work? can we find it in our understandably exhausted souls to
take those last few steps on our own and find out? I truly hope we can.
contact me over on my facebook page (link below) for
a more personalized reading based on your own questions and concerns ~ blessed Equinox, all!
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Mysteriam
Tarot & Dreamwork
