the whole reason I started making it a point to have Shabbat dinner on Friday nights was because it was an important and special family ritual that I grew up with that I wanted to continue with my own child, so he could have that same sense of connection and tradition, and a way to honor our cultural heritage. with him gone, I'm not entirely sure how to bring in Shabbat on my own. I can light the candles and say those prayers. I can say the rest of the prayers we say (the same ones my dad said) over the bread & wine, and take my sip, eat my pinch...but I'm not much in the mood for chicken soup, or a meal.
my recent foray into embracing the sabbath has been meditating on, and pulling tarot cards for, a community reading, but my well is empty right now, and I have no overflow with which to serve others at the moment. I thought of either doing a one-card pull for myself, to find a place to focus my energy, or write out a ritual for the Solstice tomorrow. can I do both? let's find out...
...turns out I can't. again, my well is currently empty, and everything is really hard and taking extra long for me right now. please be patient with my grieving process, as it interlaces with all the other stress I am/we are navigating during this intense astrological/planetary time.
I set up a lovely Solstice altar with candles, a chalice of water, quartz crystals, garnets, citrine, and amber. I put on the binaural beats, did my meditation, and pulled my cards. then I realized I had left 6 of the cards from that particular deck tucked in my tarot journal from the last reading I did. nice. so I put the cards away and tried to work on a ritual to share instead, but I was just too tired and foggy to write it all out, so I called it a night.
today, this is my best:
ritual - take a ritual bath. circle up outdoors, preferably around a fire pit. cast a circle, call in the quarters. honor Sun deities, the Divine Light, Yang energy...the root, sacral, and solar plexus chakras. sing, play, dance, drum, feast - Have Sex. gather and direct the energy raised towards a specific purpose. thank the quarters, open the circle, ground your energy. blessed be.
colors - orange, yellow, white, gold
crystals - sunstone, serpentine, garnet, amber, citrine, carnelian
flowers - roses, marigolds, sunflowers, seasonal fruits & veggies
incense - sandalwood, saffron, frankincense, laurel
activities - make flower crowns, garden, perform sun salutations, charge crystals out in the sun,
pick berries, lay in the sunshine
|image shows 6 cards from the Tarot of a Moon Garden deck, two garnets, and one citrine, on a pastel cloth with silver stripes.|
what is the sun illuminating for us? Temperance - balance, moderation, harmony...peace, patience. the sun is shining a light on our inner calm and perspective, the ways we've learned not to get caught up in drama and adapt to the situations in our lives. being in touch with who we are brings contentment, while taking the time to re-evalute our priorities will bring us an even greater sense of purpose.
what energy are we currently radiating out to the Universe? The Tower - destruction, upheaval, chaos. well, that's not a good look...though it could be! this card is about change in the most profound way. a Big change, happening Fast. throw out the old, and start building something new. this is unavoidable and scary, but usually brings us a truer foundation than what we were standing on before.
what do our souls need us to release to the sun? 6 of Staffs - victory, pride, celebrity. all hail the conquering hero, riding through the crowd with their head high, drinking in the cheers...we need to let that go. perhaps it's not the time to pat ourselves on the back for a job well done? or just put the brakes on the swelled head that can come with it?
how can we use the medicine of the sun for our growth? Ace of Pentacles - prosperity, new beginnings. this new cycle is suggestive of material things, of a seed that needs to grow in the secure ground of our stability. nurturing this energy is abundantly rewarding, like watching our dreams become reality, and being ready for the challenge of realizing our potential.
what will manifest from our Solstice intentions over the next 3 months? 6 of Swords - moving on, leaving something behind. in this card, we see a hardship overcome, and a move towards normalcy returning. we may not like what had to leave behind to get here, and feel defeated and tired from the challenges we've had to face and overcome, but we are healing, and possibly heading towards a stronger version of ourselves. we need to think rationally about the best ways to get there.
message from the sun? Wheel of Fortune - changes, cycles, fate/destiny. no one can avoid their turns on the wheel. we must remember to enjoy the good while we have it, because everything can and does change in an instant, then changes again. while the process can be uncomfortable, that inevitability is the only thing we can rely on - the Universe will maintain it's own balance, and we're mostly just along for the ride.
well that's all pretty intense...but shining a light on our Temperance while we're caught up in Tower energy will certainly bring our consciousness into how we're being the 6 of Staffs, and that Ace of Pentacles brings some hope to the hardships of the 6 of Swords as we all go for another turn on the Wheel of Fortune. the recent eclipses (lunar & solar) with so many planets in retrograde (four!) has been a wild ride, and while we're coming out of it, the astrology speaks to there being even more turmoil on the horizon. so stay sharp, keep focused, and have your eyes on the prize (whatever that may be for you).
thank you for coming along, commenting, and sharing - this reading is for anyone who wants/needs it! as always, I hope there's something in here for you, personally, and feel free to contact me for a private reading.