I'm really tired because I started a new job that has me working 9 hours a day Sunday through Thursday, and 4 hours on Fridays. while I'm sure I'll get used to the schedule/routine, it's a lot at the moment. and since there's a bunch of things that need doing around the house on my one day off, I'm making a list so I can get them done quickly, and hopefully still have time to rest a bit before going back to work tomorrow.
dishes - I put away the clean dishes, then washed the rest of the dirty ones so I could clean the sink to wash my work shirts in. yes, it would be more 'appropriate' to wash them in the bathroom sink, in my opinion, but the bathroom sink is too small. then I took a small break to update the blog, have a snack, and play some online sheshbesh, too. ✔
wash work shirts - got the work shirts washed to the best of my ability. there's no stopper, so it's kind of impossible to get the sink to fill with water without it draining out before I'm done. whatever. maybe I'll get a chance to wash them at the laundromat after payday (nope. washed them in the sink again this week). ✔
Clean The Bathroom - did the bathroom, yay! honestly, I hadn't cleaned it for too long, and it was getting really gross. mostly just the toilet, but since I'm the only one here, and I don't have guests, the only one being grossed out by it is me, so...yeah. I swept the floor, but it still needs to be mopped, which is next on the list. I really dislike doing the floors for some reason, so I tend to procrastinate on them. probably because they never really look 100% clean to me, and get dirty again so quickly. ✔
mop floors - there. I did 7/8 of the floor. the last 1/8 will wait a few minutes while the last bit I did dries. I do it in sections...it doesn't take a lot of time, it's just annoying because I sometimes have to go over a section more than once to get every speck of dust and debris I can because I'm like that. ✔
re-pot however many plants I can - turns out I had enough soil to re-pot 6 plants! one of my baby lemon trees, and 5 of my little tree sprouts, which a quick google search leads me to believe are 'Bauhinia variegata', aka 'purple orchid tree'. ✔
make a big salad for work lunches - (this happened the next morning, but it did happen.) ✖
cook a 'proper' meal (stir-fry) - scrambled the eggs; meant to do the meat next but was going too fast and accidentally put the rice in the pot first, so that's simmering now. rice and meat are both done; veggies are chopped and cooking; rice has been added to the pot; meat added along with legumes and spices, and finally the eggs. time to eat! ✔
meerpeset - well, I went out to sweep the meerpeset, but there are three air conditioners upstairs that drip down onto it, and with the floor being wet, I ended making a bigger mess of it than was there to begin with. so that was really annoying, stupid, and counter-productive. and since my 'indoor shoes' got wet and dirty out there, they left dirt just inside the door on the floor I just mopped, so I had to wipe that spot again. yay! grumble grumble angry face. it's ok, it's done now, and I'm just going to move on (I did finally get the meerpeset clean to my standards a few days later). ✖
talk to the kid - (happened the next morning before I had to get ready for work, but it did happen.) ✖
lay on an icepack - done and done (just about every day, these days). ✔
that was my whole Shabbat (last week). and while I know most people can probably get more done in a day than washing their dishes, handwashing 5 t-shirts, cleaning their bathrooms, mopping their floors, doing a bit of gardening and cleaning the porch, making a salad and a stir-fry, while writing a blog post about it, for me it's a lot. especially since my diabetes is wildly uncontrolled at the moment, and I'm tired all the time. the full moon tends to drain my energy and it being an eclipse had me all over the place emotionally, as well. I didn't even get to see the moon turn red because I fell asleep as soon as I completed my list, and woke up just after it ended. go figure.
I didn't end up working this Friday - I had an appointment with the nutritionist, and was supposed to go in after if there was still time, but there wasn't. so I wandered through the shuk to see if there was anything I needed, but I wanted to take a closer look at the meal plan the nutritionist made for me before buying anything, so I just got some chicken (which I knew was part of the meal plan), and a small challah, and headed home for Shabbat. I managed to get the dishes done and the sink cleaned again because I had to wash my work shirts by hand again, and cooked a meal of mac & cheese - which was definitely NOT on the meal plan, but I had planned for it and purchased the ingredients for it, so I went for it. it was pretty good, but I don't think I did myself any favors by eating it. I still would like to clean the bathroom and do the floors again because if I leave them for next week, it will once again get too dirty in here for me to function well. I really do much better in a clean space.
it's only just past noon, and there's plenty of time to get the cleaning done, as well as some paperwork, and taking a good look at that meal plan so I can implement it during my work week. I'm supposed to be checking my blood sugar 2 hours after my meals, too, which I generally don't bother with because I know it's generally high, and I don't need the stress of knowing how high, but I guess I'm trying? I'd like to be able to have more energy for the kids I work with - and for myself, in the event I ever do anything other than work again. I did lose some weight since I moved to Israel, and my A1C which has been through the roof did come down a point, but that's not enough to really make a difference. I've gotten it down before, and I'd like to get it down again to avoid having to take the insulin and other various drugs my doctor tried to prescribe which I refused to take.
the nutritionist also said the way I take the one medication I did agree to use isn't doing me any favors, and suggested a better schedule, so I'm working on correcting that as well. again, it's probably not a lot for most people, but I'm not most people. I'm ME, and I function as well as I can inside a societal framework that doesn't fit my idea of what life should be like because I want to survive a bit longer than my dad, who died at 57 (I'm 56), and maybe even as long as my mom, who died at 77. and I want to be as vibrant and healthy as I can rather than a frail old woman confined to a wheelchair or a bed. it's not like I have any life insurance to pay for an old people home when that time comes.
I still feel so young in my heart and mind, it's hard to believe I'm anything other than the 20 year old kid I once was, though the lack of male attention I receive makes me feel as if I've become invisible. I'm not sure if it's my age, my weight, or my not-so-subtle 'fuck off' vibe. I went on a few dates recently, and while I wasn't impressed with them, they seemed interested enough, so...I don't know. maybe they were so desperate they'd take anything, and I'm not nearly that interested in ruining my peace for someone that doesn't meet my rigid standards. we'll see. maybe if I get myself feeling more healthy I'll feel more confident about meeting people for romantic interludes. right now, it's enough to keep my apartment up to my level of acceptance!
boring post that says nothing, really, but like with most things, I'm trying to keep to a schedule, so there it is. Shabbat Shalom ~
