Bloggy Thing

I've been typing up some old porn I wrote for this cool guy I want to be in love with, but it's kind of distracting, because I wrote it for another guy who was a douchebag...but I needed to take a break from the sex type thing and get back to something real. My 'N.O.E.' is my work in progress, the ongoing saga, my life in chapters. I think I may get to like this new chapter, this bloggy chapter, because it seems neat, contained. Easily retrievable. Not like all this scraping together of scraps written on the paper bags we brought the alcohol home in...

So I've got this guy (sort of) - we'll see in a few months...

And I've got this job - getting REALLY slow at work, now! I've been going in between 8:30 and 9:00am, making sure A is set, taking off; going back at 11, hanging out till the kid gets there, making sure they're all set, and taking off...I need the hours, but I can't justify standing around getting paid to do nothing! Blossom Bash looks like it may be pretty awesome, I sure hope so! The weather's been gorgeous, the trees look beautiful, free samples = sales $$! Let's hope... So looking forward to my vacation this year, Jeez, 5 weeks to go? I could start the countdown! Now would be a good time to have that back-up gig, where I sell crafts at the store in the off season...next year, I'm gonna split up some hostas!

And I've got the kid - for vaca this year: Thomas trains, new bedroom (paint & furniture), 'graduate' pre-k., Vermont. Starts school in the Fall...not sure if I'm ready!

I've got the BF - hopefully out of THIS round of rehab in June...

Pansies are in. Strawberries are planted; peppers, carrots and pumpkins are on the way. Better get out 'Animal, Vegetable, Miracle' for reference, get a jump on what I need to start saving NOW for the winter months! Started checking out terrace designs...yes, backyard, I'm looking at you! One room left to paint in this apartment, and then I will start to call it home...

And I've got a desire to finish 'N.O.E.', work on my photography, take a martial art and a belly dance class, and lose 60 lbs. or more! What say you, my brave companion? Can this will be done? Through proper time management, you say? Bollocks, if I could manage TIME more effectively, there would be no need for this conversation...screeeech...done.

Holy Crap...

I just spent WAAYY too many hours screwing around with this thing trying to make it pretty, and managed to f**k the whole thing up in the process, and then not be able to even GET IN to try and fix it! SOMEhow, I weaseled through, and was able to dump all the stupid changes I made and get back to where I have access to the page! But now it's not pretty anymore...What a colossal waste of time and energy. So frustrating. Now I'm mad. Any of you invisible audience members feel like helping?

I did it - I'm in!

So, I'm trying to figure out how to do this thing, with my first hurdle being, "what the hell is my password?" I try to keep my passwords to a minimum so I don't have 15, 000 of them to remember, but it doesn't always work...Great, so I figured out how to sign up, and sign in, now maybe I can work on making it look pretty! I've no idea, really, what to 'blog' about! Two friends just seem to write about the generals of the day; mommy issues, family stuff, around the house and such. Another friend (and partner) check in about their homesteading, goat babies, beekeeping and the like. So, what do I have to say? I actually signed up for this so I could get some experience, because my employer thought I could do a blog about the things that go on at work. Seems like a good idea, as I run into lots of interesting people who tell me a variety of interesting things...things our customers may or may not care about! So is it a personal blog? Or a work-related blog? Who am I talking to? If you're out there, maybe I should let you decide...

Here's a bit about me: I am a 40yr. old single mom to one boy, who has been there, done that, and given it all up in favor of raising my boy, and giving him some semblance of what's considered a normal life. Don't kid yourself, I'm not what you think. I work at a 98 year old orchard in NY where we relocated to from Vermont, coming on two years ago...I do the standard 9-5 thing, and spend my evenings and weekends with the boy. I hardly ever get out. It's pathetic, and kind of sweet at the same time. In the process of raising him, I stopped caring about myself so much, and I let myself get all fat and squishy. Sexy, but squishy! I have no real contact with my close friends except on Facebook, reading of blogs, or the occassional phone call, and my BFF is currently in drug treatment 'till June (if they actually let him out, we'll see!). I have a guy or two insterested, and I'm just crossing my fingers on THAT one!

O.k.? How's that? I feel like I've done something...sort of. I've left a lot out. Not sure how much I should or shouldn't say. Again, if you're out there, tell me what you think. More of something? Less? I'll get back to it, soon enough -